01:59 am - Trial by fire I am alternating between being
(a) Extremely Pleased with the hotness level of my thesis - even though it as of yet has no genuinely explicit scenes and just one that is meant to be moderately spicy
(b) Extremely Embarrassed because the following people are going to read it: my thesis advisor, the three other men on my thesis committee, my entire cohort of ~10 ppl, and if it gets published then all kinds of friends and relatives and who knows who.
There is a chance that the draft that goes to my thesis defense will just say [[Here THEY HAVE SEX. It is NICE]]
People who've written more fanfic than I have have to deal with this kind of thing all the time, I know; I haven't had that sort of practice.
(Regarding the first third of the novel, which HAS been workshopped, people are telling me to make it sexier unless I actually want to present these characters as asexual - which I don't - but I'm still trying to figure out how much I'm going to tinker with it in revisions; I get awkward when it comes to how much I should write about the sex lives of fictional teenagers, as compared with the sex lives of fictional adults in the latter half of the book.)